fredhechinger: ([st] hellfire lives!)
we got some groceries today! there's sandwich stuff and i got myself some frozen chimichangas, which are fucking delicious, LMAO. we also got some mini pies including a strawberry cream one, which i'm highly looking forward to. i also got some drake's coffee cakes, which made me say out loud, "i'm becoming my mother." xD

i have this new app called egge, which is a micro-blogging site (although allows a lot more characters than some others). it's a lot of fun! you can post music, movies/TV, books or whatever you want to say, and people can react with any emoji they choose. i have around 10 friends on there, and it's really nice to add people and react to their posts. i don't have twitter or bluesky anymore, as i didn't love those, and this one is just my speed. i post pictures of red, or whatever i'm watching or listening to at the moment. it's nice.

i have been dreamily sighing over a particular guy, and i know i don't know him (he's famous), but god, i want to. he's the most down-to-earth, sweet, funny, kind man and i want to be his friend, for sure. maybe a lot more! (bet you can't guess who he is, haha!)

we're going to see faces of death one last time before they take it out of theaters, and i'm really happy about it. dacre is phenomenal as a psycho killer (fuh fa fa fa fa..) and i can't wait to see him again. his eyes are mesmerizing. what a doll.

i'm considering starting to use youtube videos to workout at home. i'm so tired of my body and feeling dysphoric as all hell, so gaining muscle would be the thing. i found a specifically male workout without equipment, and it's tough, but i want to do it three times a week. i can't look like this anymore. i can't feel like this anymore. ugh.
fredhechinger: ([fred] jason hochberg)
i am genuinely manifesting the perfect guy into my life.

yes, i know, some would think that's silly, but i have a list of things he would be and i'm focusing on that. i'm very witchy, and i believe in the magic of manifestation, so i know i can do it. the biggest problem is that i basically never leave the house, LMAO. i have been going to the mall and the movies more lately so i guess we'll see. you never know what could happen.

i'm just...i'm 35 and i want a long-term, marriage kind of love. i want a man who will be kind, gentle, sweet and mature. he won't be perfect, just perfect for my temperament. i'm a terrible romantic, and i will definitely use pet names on him. i want to take him out and kiss his face and let him know how much i love him every day. yes, i've got my head in the clouds, but i'm grounded about this, as well. i just have..exact standards he has to live up to xD;;

anyway, here's to finding The One!